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Sometimes writing hurts.

I am writing the last few pages of my new short film. I can see this little boy as he says goodbye to his father. How is world changes in a second, he became a man because he had too. And what hurts the most is the pain in his dads face as he has to leave his son behind because he cant find work. He never knew all the pain his son would endure outside Kampala, being a gay man, a man of god sent to hell.

I really can’t help but feel the pain my characters are feeling. It hurts. What makes it worse is that I know that thousands of people feel this pain and that they are voiceless. I never wanted fame or fortune, all I want is to tell a story. A story that no one has heard, or one that we can all recognize, a universal arc of human feeling.

If you want to hear a brilliant song that I’m trying to get the rights to for my short check this out!

So if you hate anyone, black, white, christian , gay, muslim you need to realize you are an ahole.

We need to strive towards love, not because of a god but because we share this world for a split second, then it is done. No do overs. Stop the hate, stop the judgment, stop being a scared little ahole and be a man (or woMAN).

Yes if you know me these blogs might seem very personal, but they are, if you feel strange about it it’s ok that is normal. People are not used to seeing others real emotions, we tend to hide behind walls or mountains. I only live once, I will live it fully.

If you are a possible employer and want me to rather pipe down then guess again, that is not me. A life of silent frustration is not the one I will live.

If you have seen my short a few months from this post I hope it came across, I hope you felt it.

Also visit my other blog for more LGBT stuff, (GAY STUFF) www.thepowerofgay.com

 

 

 

 

Meouth was so cute, I had to make this comic style pic of him sittig in the drain pipe.

Can pets leave a legacy?

What is a legacy? Dictonary.com defines it as:

“Anything handed down from the past, as from an ancestor or predecessor…the legacy of ancient Rome.”

My cat Lucy is very ill, after 14 years of life it seems her path is winding to an end. I want to go back in time and play with her longer, allow her to sleep in my bed and wake me up at the worst time by pushing her wet black nose against my big fat nose. As a kitten I had to hold her tightly against me while she tried to bite and scratch me. She had a fear for people and I could see she needed to know that she could trust me before she would accept me. After weeks of restraining her and taking her nails and teeth in my flesh she got a taste for me so to speak.

She was my little Burmese kitty, ready to play and jump and sleep on my homework. She and my little sisters cat Meouth ( a fat ginger tabby) became great friends, they became brother and sister. Meouth passed away a few weeks ago, and Lucy almost mourned herself to death. After 14 years with Meouth she seemed to miss him beyond anything. She would smell his left over furr and she would meow a special meow that we all recognised was her calling Meouth. A legacy is leaving a lasting message. A lasting story. Making an impact.

Lucy is just a cat, but she is a symbol of my childhood, our family starting a new life in Cape Town. She and Meouth came into our lives and enriched every moment. When I held Lucy for the first time in 1999 I knew I loved her. As a kid I never thought of the end of her life. 14 years later I realize it is my duty to her to hold her one last time, I need to be with her when she dies. Hold her, be with her, make her feel safe in those last moments.I want to calm her like she has me. I want her to trust that I love her, and that her life meant so much to me.

Her legacy is my legacy. Lucy kept me warm, made me feel safe. She gave me company when I was a lonely 15 year old boy from a small town back in a big city. She calmed me when I was sad, purring me to sleep. A legacy is more than just property or fame. A legacy creates a lasting change in the world. You create a legacy by your behaviour. How you choose to love, act and react. Did you face your fears or did you allow them to consume you? Did you go for your dreams or did you hope they would fade away? Were you there when you were needed, did you lend a helping hand? Lucy thought me a lot about responsibility and love. She showed me that you should only trust people that are willing to bleed for you, people that will be there for you no matter how crazy things get. Or how difficult.

The ancient Egyptians had a cat god called Bast (Bastet) who represented protection, fertility and motherhood. The Egyptians hoped they would keep the cats soul alive, so that it could return to its owner to serve them in the afterlife. Here is another extract from WikiPedia:

“In 1888, an Egyptian farmer uncovered a large tomb with mummified cats and kittens. This discovery outside the town of Beni Hasan had eighty thousand cat mummies, dating to 2000-1000 BC.”

Lucy you are just a cat, and I am just a man. I will be there for you till the end, be it tomorrow, be it today. You added to my legacy, a part of who I am was created by you being in my life. I wish you could find Meouth again, he is somewhere eating…

 

PS: If you have lost a beloved pet please leave your story in the comments below.

Lucy gives me the LOOK HOW CUTE I AM look.
Lucy gives me the LOOK HOW CUTE I AM look.
My sisters CAT Meouth!
My sisters CAT Meouth!
My cat Lucy trying to get me to stop working on the computer.
My cat Lucy trying to get me to stop working on the computer.
My sisters CAT Meouth! And my dad, and Lucy my cat in the corner.
My sisters CAT Meouth! And my dad, and Lucy my cat in the corner.

 

 

 

Spielberg's E.T.

Cure Writers Block Now!

The first thing new writers ask me is, “how long should it take to write a screenplay?”, I don’t answer right away as I know that the next sentence will be some form of explanation from their part of why they still haven’t finished their own masterpiece.

 

One of the biggest problems writers talk about it called “Writers Block”. Writers block is an inability to continue writing your story, or to start a new story. I have had this illness many times before. It normally strikes me at the end of act 2, as our characters need to develop into new ones, having learnt a great deal after their confrontations with the antagonist.

 

But I found a cure, or at least for one of my “blocked” screenplays. I believe writers block is caused by dilemma in story, not dilemma in life. Yes you are probably stuck because you don’t know your characters well enough, or you don’t understand the theme of your film.

 

Theme is the most important part of a story, be it a screenplay or a novel or a web series. Web series make this mistake regularly, they forget theme for punchlines. But a very successful use of theme and comedy was done in “Dr. Horrible’s Sing Along Blog” by Joss Whedon. Go check it out.

 

If you struggle to continue writing you are probably struggling with theme or character. I was stuck on my screenplay for almost 10 months! Yes I had written 72 pages and just couldn’t end it off. Yes I had planned it on paper, cue cards, software but I was stuck.

 

So then one day I went back to the very small town in rural, South Africa where I had lived as a young child. It suddenly dawned on me! This was my story, I was telling it about the fear or returning to that small, backwater, scary, religious, conservative trap of a town. I couldn’t wait to get home. As soon as I got back from that trip my laptop was burning as I typed my fingers raw. I wrote 32 pages that night and it was done!

 

Ok, it wasn’t done, I then went back and redrafted the whole story with my new revised, focused theme. And everything improved so much with my focused theme. Characters had more depth, I knew what they would do next, I could see them alive and doing stuff in my fictional world. I no longer wondered about the next step, cause I knew the theme and the point I wanted to get across to my audience. Most importantly I knew what the character wanted and feared.

 

So writers say this a lot but “Write what you know”. I finally got what they meant.  Yes you can write the next STAR WARS without having lived in space, but the themes and characters must have a real life basis or inspiration for it to feel real. Theme should push your writing forward, it should make you challenge your fictional characters into new situations that  push them to develop as characters.

 

And this is where art imitates life. If I didn’t go back to that town to confront my fear of failure and desolation I would never have scene the theme of my story so clearly. I believe most directors tell one story over and over again as they deal with that issue in their life. Look at Steven Spielberg’s films. E.T. is about a boy that discovers something magical and out of this world, but needs to hide it to keep it. Jurassic Park, a scientist discovers his life work but must keep it secret or else greedy people will want to steel it.  In “Hook” Robin Williams goes back to the magical world where you never age, but no one believes him, and if he tells the secret it will be lost forever. Similar themes are all over the Indiana Jones movies and even in Schindler’s List a man must hide people, in a way he hides innocence from evil. Close Encounters of the Third Kind is also about a man that discovers something amazing, but no one believes him at first, they make him out as a loony, but it the end they come to see their mistake. So this is my 5 cents, Spielberg deals in his stories with childhood fear of rejection, of being called a fool for believing in something different.

 

So find YOUR theme, your story, your dilemma in life, and write the living text out of it. As Spielberg has shown you can write about anything but still have the same underlying theme. It doesn’t have to be your main theme but make sure you work your dilemma in there, the audience will love you for it.

 

If you are a writer please leave comments about your thoughts on writers block below. Have an amazingly creative day!

Spielberg's E.T.
E.T. Was one of my favorite movies as a child, and represents the cure for writers block.
Cover page for Parlor Vinyls Shoot.

The Parlor Vinyls Shoot

Cover page for Parlor Vinyls Shoot.

When my friend Niel asked me to take some pictures and video for his awesome band “The Parlor Vinyls” I didn’t hesitate to say yes. Niel’s band is a mix of oldschool rock / blues with heavy guitar riffs and hard hitting drum beats.

It’s a clash between Gaslight Anthem and old school Foo-Fighters. The Parlor Vinyls was rocking so hard they actually caused a power surge that blew some generators at the Cape Town Blues Summit on 30th of November 2012.

I went for a subdued warm style for the photography, I rammed op the focus to make it crisp and give it a magazine style look. Also used white bars to create poster effect. Hope you like the pics.

For the full Gallery click here!

Cover page for Parlor Vinyls Shoot.

Stephen Bekker's face

Pressed for WordPress

We got internet in 1995, I remember it took 30 mins for a small picture of Warcraft to download to my PC, I was 9 years old, I sat there looking at the pixels load thinking this was the best thing ever, now I get mad if my ADSL line doesn’t get at least 4mbs, it eeks me to rage if an HD 1080p YouTube video has LAG or buffers!

So being no stranger to the internet I only today, the 8th of December 2012 got my first WordPress blog. I have blogged on other platforms but they just felt dead and stuck.

As a selfproclaimed control freak I have researched WordPress for years and other means of internet expression. But now I finally made the jump to WordPress. Why? Well I had a myspace…and I have Facebook pages but all those sites kinda rely on you forcing your poor friends and family to read your crappy thoughts and ideas.

Given some thoughts on Facebook or twitter might be genuis, but your gran and aunt from rural no where might have missed that episode of “The Real L World” or “New Normal, even stuff like True Blood or Lady Gaga might make them sick to their conservative stomach.

So WordPress allows me to blog to the WHOLE WORLD. Yes now Billions can see my cr@p and roll their eyes at my pretentious self deceiving image of myself and my abilities.

Ok, so this blog will focus on Movies, TV, Film making, Directing, Video Editing, Cameras and other movie tech. Also scriptwriting, and storytelling in general.

Each post will cover one or more of those topics. And I will also give links to awesome utilities and sites I have found on the internet. And maybe I’ll even sell you some books online, that I’ve read and find AWESOME!

Another SO: I write kinda sarcastically and very blasphemosly, don’t take offence, or do take offense, whatever.

I will not SWEAR, but these words will replace them:

FRAK (see Battlestar Galactica)

BLERG (See 30 Rock)

Gosh (AKA Jaweh)

So any other harsh words only seem harsh cuase your probably a conservative internet trolling child molester.

Love you. Working on my first storytelling post as you read. Cheers (that means goodbye in South African, Cape Town

Stephen Bekker's face

This is me! Well with some help from Airbrush in photoshop., slang)